Time to sleep

Good afternoon all
squid here

so we have all had thoes sleepless nights right?

i can remember as a child not being able to sleep before christmas, and my birthday because i was so excited. I was excited for the presents, for the joy, for spending time with people and all that fun stuff that comes along with celibration! Am i right, i mean it still happens to the best of us.

I can remember the night before i went on my frist open water dive in the summer of july of 1997.... I was 16, i was young, i was so excited, i had been training for this moment for so long, and the next day i was going to the ocean, the real, ocean to go see where the fish live. to see what was under that green water of the north atlantic. to see what the ghlouster fisherman and lobstermen take from the bottom.

I was going to swim with the fishes. haha
good old family quote!

then there are times you cant sleep for other reasons, and the worst is worry. and we all have been there too
worried about a friend or family member, even a pet
worried about a test
worried about something

but now tonight before i lay my head to rest i know I am not going to be able to sleep again
and it is not becuase i am exctied
it is because i am worried

tomorrow i am going to go see a doctor and they are going to look over my knee
they are going to tell me if i can go back to work
or if i cant
they are going to tell me if i can dive
ride,
climb
do anything i like to do ever again

or how much of it i can do

this is stress
this is what i worry about
i know i might be taking this too seriously
or i might be worring to much

the swelling in my knee has gone down
and i can move it a bit
but not more than 90 degrees, and not more than 50 with out pain
maybe even 30 degrees

whats the worst that can happen
out of work longer
surgery on my knee
cant do thiings like i use to
watch my knee for the rest of my life!

play with fire you eventualy will get burnt right

i have taken falls on my bike
and i have hurt my self diving
and at my age never broken a bone!
i guess that made me feel like i was stronger than i thought
and i prooved my self wrong!
so here it is
im worried
about tomorrow

hope you sleep better than i do

squid out